I would first say, don't be so hard on yourself
It looks great! I'm not sure what "look" you are trying to achieve when making your bows, but I have found very useful tutorials on youtube.com (search boutique hairbows) and also Free Hair Bow Instructions: hairbow free directions, hair bow business work at home
. Hope this helps you some! But let me say again, kuddos to you. You're doing fine!